And I'm up again

Today was day #1 of stumbling in my new desire for positivity. But even though I've been sad and felt a little beat up today, I didn't cave into the total meltdown I know is possible. I actually had a long talk with my Mom today about my pace in life and anxiety and that it's possible Scott doesn't even know me.

Being in a relationship for over three years, you would think he'd be learning little bits about me every day because he knew me for the most part as a whole. But I'm afraid he's only known this high-octane, anxious person that hasn't been able to handle all life has thrown at her. And that's not who I want to be, nor who I've been most of my life.

So, check one for the stumble. It's absolutely going to happen a million more times; it's just how I handle it that matters. Only 2.5 more hours until I can get home and be over the work part of today. Bring on the glass of wine and finally putting Christmas away.