Oh my goodness. I think this is how exhausted feels. Market is an amazing, fantastic, draining experience I now couldn't imagine my life without. I love seeing the new, the great. I love the ability to bring in something new and fantastic. The store has turned into a lifestyle boutique I am blessed to bring to people. The fashion and style - ugh, I'm in love. I love the responsibility of bringing something new and stylish to our customers and hopefully can become a source for what's new and next. Love it!
8 hours, 8 appts, 5 miles on foot, 3 cabs, 1 coffee, 1 SF red bull, free fun stuff = tired girl working from bed in the hotel room before dinner with a fav vendor tonight.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
"Jana likes to live on the edge"
Well that was interesting. I had a meeting at the alma mater yesterday - and might I say I'm even filled with more pride than before - so I decided to check out a few places nearby. I walked into the bookstore and the local Greek spirit shop. The bookstore was just that, generic and mass-produced. But the Greek shop was the same as ever. So cute and fun that I wanted to find something to buy. I wanted to feel included. But I noticed it was entirely Greek and what was University was the generic and the same as ever.
I've felt bad about opening the shop and stepping on the toes of my former boss. I worked at the Greek spirit shop for 6 years in college and after. She was a mother to me when my own had issues accepting who I am. But my fears are apparently hers as well.
I walked in and began to relax, realizing how different we still are. There isn't one person that would shop at one over the other, but rather probably shop in both to find exactly what they're looking for. And after a year of being open and a handful of visits, I finally ran into her again ... and it was interesting.
She threw me under the bus for opening in the first place, making sure I knew I could have found something cute at her store. Then questioned why I wasn't working and was out walking around in the first place. THEN asks me if I ever got married. I tell her no, conversation is awkward for a bit, and I say something about dating Scott and she says, "Oh - you're dating too? I thought it was just business. Well, Jana never did make the wisest decisions. She likes to live on the edge." She left me fake smiling with my mouth a-gape as she returned to her throngs of customers buying for Bid Day.
Seriously? I've been terrified of running into her for fear she would misread my store as stepping on her toes; HOWEVER, in reality, it's nothing like her store whatsoever. There isn't one style, product or inch of atmosphere that overlaps. But she apparently only did enough research to feel the need to parent me into my place.
I pictured that encounter totally different.
I've felt bad about opening the shop and stepping on the toes of my former boss. I worked at the Greek spirit shop for 6 years in college and after. She was a mother to me when my own had issues accepting who I am. But my fears are apparently hers as well.
I walked in and began to relax, realizing how different we still are. There isn't one person that would shop at one over the other, but rather probably shop in both to find exactly what they're looking for. And after a year of being open and a handful of visits, I finally ran into her again ... and it was interesting.
She threw me under the bus for opening in the first place, making sure I knew I could have found something cute at her store. Then questioned why I wasn't working and was out walking around in the first place. THEN asks me if I ever got married. I tell her no, conversation is awkward for a bit, and I say something about dating Scott and she says, "Oh - you're dating too? I thought it was just business. Well, Jana never did make the wisest decisions. She likes to live on the edge." She left me fake smiling with my mouth a-gape as she returned to her throngs of customers buying for Bid Day.
Seriously? I've been terrified of running into her for fear she would misread my store as stepping on her toes; HOWEVER, in reality, it's nothing like her store whatsoever. There isn't one style, product or inch of atmosphere that overlaps. But she apparently only did enough research to feel the need to parent me into my place.
I pictured that encounter totally different.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Happy Moment
Daily SF Red Bull in hand. Diddy jamming in the background. Sooo many good things on the horizon. Way too many potential hazards every day to make me stress out, but I'm having a happy, amazed, full-of-love moment and wanted to put it on "paper."
Possible house closing at the end of the month in my dream neighborhood. Appraisal was Monday and still waiting to hear.
Awesome new product ordered in the store. Just waiting on delayed deliveries
Football season is almost here. It's a stagnant 100+ degrees day after day.
Scotty and I are in a really good place. We can argue at the drop of a dime.
I think this is the definition of schizo. No? Yes, definitely. Well, maybe. Ha!
Possible house closing at the end of the month in my dream neighborhood. Appraisal was Monday and still waiting to hear.
Awesome new product ordered in the store. Just waiting on delayed deliveries
Football season is almost here. It's a stagnant 100+ degrees day after day.
Scotty and I are in a really good place. We can argue at the drop of a dime.
I think this is the definition of schizo. No? Yes, definitely. Well, maybe. Ha!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Trucking along
I work. I work hard and I work long hours. I pretty much do nothing but live and breathe work. I have nothing to talk about but work. But that's how it is, right? You work now for the rewards later? I'm a do-er. I'm a driven girl. I'm not content waiting for life to happen, I make it happen. And with that comes the struggle for relaxing down-time.
My idols lately? I'm starting to think my last CEO, but she's a little Diva-ish, so maybe not her
Bethenney with her cocktail empire and her husband and baby. She pulled herself up, did it and worked her ass off.
LC - Still love her. Again, someone who utilized connections to move herself in a direction she wanted. She works every day, creates something she loves and just deals with the petty people she runs into along the way.
Kelly Cutrone - Hard-nosed, get it done. No questions asked. Just do it. Loves her family. Loves those around her.
All of these people are fiercely protective of their friends and families, work harder than anyone I know and are bountifully successful. They grateful, genuine-hearted and turn a blind eye to those that spit hatred. I just have to keep them in focus, remember my goals and get there. Nose down, enjoy myself from time to time - definitely - and get there.
My idols lately? I'm starting to think my last CEO, but she's a little Diva-ish, so maybe not her
Bethenney with her cocktail empire and her husband and baby. She pulled herself up, did it and worked her ass off.
LC - Still love her. Again, someone who utilized connections to move herself in a direction she wanted. She works every day, creates something she loves and just deals with the petty people she runs into along the way.
Kelly Cutrone - Hard-nosed, get it done. No questions asked. Just do it. Loves her family. Loves those around her.
All of these people are fiercely protective of their friends and families, work harder than anyone I know and are bountifully successful. They grateful, genuine-hearted and turn a blind eye to those that spit hatred. I just have to keep them in focus, remember my goals and get there. Nose down, enjoy myself from time to time - definitely - and get there.
SFRB to the Rescue
I don't think I can make it through an afternoon lately without a Sugar Free Red Bull. I was in love before going to LA, but now I'm full-blown addicted. But now even the taste of it puts me in a better mood.
Today is on the more stressful side of life. Business is beyond slow. Weather is oppressive-hot with no end in sight. Bills are piling up personally and professionally. My relationship that was doing fantastically better is buckling a bit under all the pressure of finances and work. I just need everything to stop for a moment so that I can walk away, take a deep breath and come back. Walk away, take a deep breathe and come back. (I actually took a couple deep breaths while writing it, hence the repetition).
Do other people react to their jobs like me? I had an incredibly intense job in NYC due to the fact that my boss hated me. Apparently, it's not so bad anymore. It really was just me she hated. But my friends enjoy their jobs and I don't ever remember a desk job making me feel this physically drained and exhausted or absolutely end-of-my-rope stressed out. I guess bc I didn't own those companies.
Touche.
I have to learn to calm down and for now, one thing that helps is my SF Red Bull. And so it goes as I pop the top again.
Today is on the more stressful side of life. Business is beyond slow. Weather is oppressive-hot with no end in sight. Bills are piling up personally and professionally. My relationship that was doing fantastically better is buckling a bit under all the pressure of finances and work. I just need everything to stop for a moment so that I can walk away, take a deep breath and come back. Walk away, take a deep breathe and come back. (I actually took a couple deep breaths while writing it, hence the repetition).
Do other people react to their jobs like me? I had an incredibly intense job in NYC due to the fact that my boss hated me. Apparently, it's not so bad anymore. It really was just me she hated. But my friends enjoy their jobs and I don't ever remember a desk job making me feel this physically drained and exhausted or absolutely end-of-my-rope stressed out. I guess bc I didn't own those companies.
Touche.
I have to learn to calm down and for now, one thing that helps is my SF Red Bull. And so it goes as I pop the top again.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Humble Pie
Life is funny. I view myself as quite pessimistic, stressed out, anxious, etc. But you never know what someone else sees. And it's always a humbling thing to find out.
The security guard near the store is the eyes and ears of the place. He sees everything, knows everyone and you definitely want on his good side. I've never done anything to try and get there, but never to get away from it either. He comes in and says hello almost every day, checks on the store and slowly we've started to talk more and more. He's fascinated, or maybe just really curious, about my diabetes. Every day he wants to know what I can eat, how I brush my teeth, where does my pump go when I sleep, can I handle the extreme heat, etc.
Today as he asks me the usual round of questions, he stops and says - I love coming and talking to you. You inspire me. You really inspire me. You do. Some days you keep me going. You're always positive. I know you have bad days, but you're always smiling and kind. I really love talking to you.
Humbled.
The security guard near the store is the eyes and ears of the place. He sees everything, knows everyone and you definitely want on his good side. I've never done anything to try and get there, but never to get away from it either. He comes in and says hello almost every day, checks on the store and slowly we've started to talk more and more. He's fascinated, or maybe just really curious, about my diabetes. Every day he wants to know what I can eat, how I brush my teeth, where does my pump go when I sleep, can I handle the extreme heat, etc.
Today as he asks me the usual round of questions, he stops and says - I love coming and talking to you. You inspire me. You really inspire me. You do. Some days you keep me going. You're always positive. I know you have bad days, but you're always smiling and kind. I really love talking to you.
Humbled.
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