Saturday, June 18, 2011

Tomorrow isn't soon enough

I'm sitting in a place between absolute exhaustion and possible secondary breakdown and incredibly blessed and in awe of the graciousness of life and people in it.

One, my body is so physically wiped that I can't even sleep at night. My muscles are in a constant state of pain. I'm wearing workout gear and tennis shoes every day just to keep walking. I lie on a heating pad each night just to fall asleep - although I never stay there more than two hours. I am the definition of exhausted. I have no energy and no desire to find any. I'm wiped. I don't know how else to say it.

Two, the insane success of the store has me running all day every day. I barely have time to step back and look at what's happening. I have to make myself enjoy it, but when I do look up, I am humbled. I can't believe this thought in my head two years ago has turned into an actual business, thriving and growing every minute.

But I'm too tired to continue. I must sit and stare into space because I have 3 hours before my part-time girl arrives and I leave for not one, but two friend's celebrations this evening. I love them, but don't want anything save my sweats!

Tomorrow. Tomorrow. Somewhere between church and cleaning the entire apartment, I will get a chance to slow down and do nothing.

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