Coffee, candle, Adult Alternative on the TV radio station. A calm, peacefulness. This moment has alluded me for weeks, but without even trying I looked out the window, took a deep breath and here it is.
There's nothing calm about my life right now. It has layers and layers of stress and when you peel one back, there's another waiting in the wings. I moved in with the boyfriend after being diagnosed with a chronic illness that's been flaring up for weeks and keeping us both on ER watch, launching two new businesses after losing my job, COBRA and unemployment running out in a matter of months and only an idea of how to handle both, based on the success of one of said new businesses. Add on vocal family disapproval of my living situation, grandmother deteriorating in a hospital and my life could be a dramatic series on Lifetime. But it is not.
Calm, peacefulness. Hope for what's about to happen in my life. Being my own boss, being able to make the decisions and bask in the glory and with that comes the stress. But yet, what I've always wanted. I'm sitting with wet hair and no makeup in slippers at my desk at home at 10:30AM with a Cookie Crunch candle burning and coffee out of my SMU Alumni mug. And bonus? A moment to sit down and write out how grateful I am for where I'm at in all of this craziness.
However, now I need to put myself in FFwd and finish up all my current loose ends on both positions with an event coming up and invites and press due, an interview for potential commission-based wedding planning next week, a proposal for a possible wedding client to put together, orders to chase from market, a press kit to build, a store to plan... calm, peacefulness. calm, peacefulness.
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