Open Letter to Dallas

I apologize for the rain. It is my fault and I am sorry you have to deal with my issues on your way to work and throughout your now dreary day. I am so deep in 96 hours of "truly dark and twisty/drowning in my own life" that it appears I managed to force all of my misery outward into the universe. It met back up in the sky and is now pouring down over the city. For that, I am very sorry.

That is all.

Vin, s'il vous plait

Today is a horrible, no good, very bad day. Humph.

Anxiety attack before bed. Restless sleep. On the phone with tech support for 2.5 hours. Exhausted from physically re-arranging the entire store. Over it.

I don't think a "humph" does it. I think I need a good "hurrumph!" That sounds more emphatic.

Hurrumph!

Clean It Out - All of it!

Happy Sunshiney Holiday! Well, I'm at work, but most of the country is on holiday today. Enjoy, my friends. Minus the crazy wind tunnels and my allergies making me miserable, I can see that it is a beautiful day!

It's the change of season, which, minus the allergy illness, gets me so pumped for Spring. It's this automatic reaction to just start cleaning things out. I've dumped a couple pair of shoes, a couple tops, 50 CDs and convinced Boo to clean out about ten shirts he never wears. Feels so good to donate and clean it all out! That and I found an amazing deal today. $24 on a $204 dress. Are you kidding? Fantabulous! So I'm filling in the holes, but with cuter newer stuff.

We're even cleaning out at the store. There's a whole corner marked at half off. I found great stuff at Market and want to bring it all in! But I need to move some of my previous store buying items. Apparently, dresses are not the ideal item up here in Plano. Who knew?

I'm even cleaning myself out! Time to shed the winter poundage I've acquired. It's only like, 5 lbs, but I vow to lose 10! Or at the very least tone up this 30-year old belly of mine. I hate my "older" body. I've grown hips in the last year. Where did they come from? Well, regardless - I'm cleaning off some pounds. Less wine, walking on the trail, crunches, eating well, no dessert - clean it out!

It's Spring Cleanse time! What are you going get rid of?

Sleet Storm

Apparently life wasn't going to slow down any time soon, so God gave me a snow storm. It's my taking control of the situation instead of letting it whip me up inside and carry me along for the ride. That's the definition of my life lately. Whipped along. Or maybe whirred along. Whipped sounds almost pleasant, like dessert.

I began greeting the sleet storm with anxiety. How am I going to pay rent if I start off the month without sales? What if someone wants to buy Superbowl gear? What if I miss my UPS shipment? I was unnerved before even showering Tuesday, ultimately spending the day at home. I stressed my way through what should have been a relaxing coffee and breakfast at a local restaurant. I came home, crawled back in bed and read my new favorite book. Miracle author.

I have now spent two days relaxing and being a normal person again. I did all the laundry, cleaned, cooked, marinated, did my nails, napped, slept a full night, cuddled with the dog, watched tv and even worked! I guess I didn't relax so much, but having the time to do all of that is relaxing to me.

I am so incredibly grateful for this storm.